I Am Surviving

Today, I hit 15 weeks. Over the past two weeks, I have had some better days. But, no matter what, it's as if I have some kind of internal clock, the morning sickness always kicks in at about 5 PM. And, there are still days, during the day, almost out of nowhere, where I will be seemingly fine and then find myself rushing to the toilet to heave the entire contents of my stomach. I never threw up with my other two pregnancies. Still, there are days where I feel miserable all day long! I have started to show over the past two weeks. But only gained two pounds so far. Actually, early on, I gained five pounds almost overnight, but then I lost it when the morning sickness kicked in, so now I'm once again weighing two pounds more than I did at the start of November. I have also not been headache-free for 16 days now. (Yes, I am counting!) Sometimes it's just a headache and other times it festers to a migraine.

Last Monday, I got to hear the heartbeat with the Doppler for the first time. The doctor forewarned me that it might take a few moments because the baby was still so small. Well, she placed it on the exact right spot and found it within a half a second! There was a nice, strong heartbeat!

Next Saturday, I start my 17p shots. We got it all worked out with the insurance and the medication is being delivered to the house early next week. In about a week and a half I get my next ultrasound. I suspect this will be the one where we find out if we are having a boy or a girl. James is going to this appointment. Thomas and Toby are certain it is a girl. I'm not sure who will be more upset if it's not, me or them. I'm still trying to prepare that it's another boy and that I'll be a permanent member of the "all boys club" but it's hard not to wonder, especially because I have felt quite a bit different this time around.

Until later,

Emily